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Letters to Doctor S, Part I (and a half.)

Dear Thaddeus,

     Yes, I’ve still been sleeping badly. No, Arnold still has not warmed to this place. Yes, I’m still dreaming of him… And no, for a final answer to your final question in your reply, I do not wish to undergo dream treatments. The so-called dream therapist here wouldn’t know a degree if it bit his black, swishy tail. I will deal with the lack of sleep in my own way. (And yes, I do eat. I swear, it’s just like being back in my internship with you — You and Arnold, buddying up to make me take care of myself and making me go to bed at a decent hour! )

*She pauses here to sigh heavily, rub her eyes and continue*

     Actually, Thaddeus, what I wished to write you about was that issue that occurred before I left home. I want to know if he’s still looking for me. I want to know if he’s still looking to… carry out his father’s wishes and I wish to know if he’s come to badger you at all. If he has, there are things I will need to attend to and people that I must contact. Don’t worry about me Thaddeus, I can take care of myself. And yes, I do know what I am doing. I did fine before I left to live with my fiance, and I have to remember the woman I once was… Love made me careless and that’s why I lost him. I refuse to lose anyone else I love and care for to the mess that was made by carelessness.
     Once I start sleeping on a regular schedule again, things will change. I will go back to my original state of mind and I will be the woman I was before he and I met. I have to be in this city, because if the past comes to corporeally haunt me, I can’t be falling apart as I am. I have to show no more weakness and grieve in my dreams. I don’t have time for falling apart any more.

The time for change is now. I must become who I was again or this city and its more prominent citizenry will devour what life I may make here. I will have to apologize to Arnold once done is done. I appreciate your friendship, Thad, and I thank you for taking a chance by educating me, and for the promise that you kept to my father before he died. If you don’t wish to send these letters through the post any more, I am more than sure that I can find a reputable (or rather, less than reputable) carrier pigeon service here somewhere.

                                                                                                             Ever Your Student,


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  1. Arnold -Gager- Arnold -Gager- June 13, 2011

    *Reads over her shoulder after she’s done and reading it over herself*  Miss Maddox, if you could take care of yourself I would not have bothered to be here. 

  2. Maddox Sinclaire Maddox Sinclaire June 13, 2011

    There are still things of which you know nothing, Arnold. I must tell you the story soon.

    • Arnold -Gager- Arnold -Gager- June 13, 2011

      You can hide what happened back at home from me as long as you want Miss Maddox, I’ve kept many w0rse secrets from you, but nothing you tell me is going to change the fact I think you can not take care of yourself.

  3. Tepic Harlequin Tepic Harlequin June 13, 2011

    mmmmm…. pigeon…. what? Miss Hermet? no.. i wasn’t going to…… honest!

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